Salam,ma3leh bedi e3tezer menkon la2ani ma 3am ektob bel 3arabi bass sara7a ana bati2 in arabic w ma ma3i wa2t abdan ya jame3a so medtar....
awal chi betmana hal mawdou3 yle2i ehtimem kbir la2anou anjad mouhem w khatir w ma 7ada 7eki fi w sar shi tabi3i w yemken le2i e3tiradet 7atta mn ba3d l ekhweh l chway daynin bass anyway betmanna l moucherakeh kasifeh w betmanna kamen iza fi 7ada y7awlou lal 3arabi bikoun a7san kama wa betmana mn l akh lmas2oul ennou ysabbet hal mawdou3 w ennou ya3melou taswit w tamani akhir ennou elli bedou ye2ri ya ykaffi lal ekher ya ma ye2ri bl marra.
lmawdou3 ya ekhwen 3an l sabaya bhal 2yem w lebson w 7a e7ki ana 3a sabil lmisel bel almoun ma3leh e7na n7ell hal mechkleh bel almoun w ykater khayerna....awal chi ana (w ma3 l asaf) mani dayen bass l7amdella bsalli w bkhaf alla w mani m3a2ad bass l ossa ennou banetna hal 2yem sayer lebson ma mni7 abadan w sar chi 3adi,iza 7ada masalan addamlon nasi7a bikoun yemken raj3i w metkhallef aw m3a2ad,ye3ni bteb2a lwe7deh lebsetlak hal khazzi2 ya abou l shabeb w meshyeh ka2anna 3am te3rod jesma!!!! w awlet l ghenyeh nesi min bighanya(bet2asser ma bihemma la baya wala emma.....) "yeslamouli baya w emma la kl we7deh btelbes ma mni7 addeh bikounou fahimin" , ana ma bedi e7ki 3a yalli lebson ktir ma mni7 w fazi3 la2an hayda chi akid kellna metef2in ennou ghalat ktir ...... bass 7ebbet e7ki 3an elli lebson nesbian ma2boul aw bel a7ra sar ma2boul hal 2yem , ye3ni masalan elli byelbsoulak pontalong bass bikoun yekhzi l 3en daye2 w mfassal ljesem tefsil!!! so lachou aslan lebsti, tayeb ya bnt l3alam ma bidey2ek hayda aktar mn l wese3?? walla l wese3 ma byeghri l chabeb??? iza ken l hadaf houwa l eghra2 ye3ni elli btelbes hek w hadafa hek ma3leh sma7ouli fia fa hyeh mara7 oul mana mni7a bass ma fi tefsir ella hek!! lakan leh 3am teghri ? akid ma taysalli 3al nabi w y2oul machalla chou hal 7elou!!!!!!!!!!!
ma3leh law twalt 3laykon bass wallahi ennou lmawdou3 7ere2li albi w 7ebeb yekhod ahamitou barki nchalla bikoun fi kher w walla add ma e7ki bidal fi chi jouweti nesi oulou la2an anjad hal mawdou3 ekhed 7ayyez kbir b albi.....ma ra7 e7ki mn l ne7yeh l dinyeh awal chi la2an dinian kelna metef2in ennou 7aram w teni chi 7atta e3rod masewe2 hal chi mn nawe7i gher l dinyeh,so khallina ne7ki akhle2ian: ya toura hal chi akhle2yan sa7 ennou l benet tkoun lebseh khazzi2 aw blouzeh dawba wasleh lal pontalong aya te3leyeh aw tewtayeh bibayen batna aw dahra????anjad ana w 3am ektob masmoum badani kif lbenet bte2bat 3a 7ala tkoun ma3rad??? law ma3rad mni7 w fi kher ma mnez3al ba3den bfout bhal ne7yeh...
yemken la2 w akid kl l banet elli lebson hek w eli ma l7a2 3layon wa7don l7a2 3al ahl elli rabouwon 3a hal chi mn zagharon ma ye3jebon 7akyii w y2oulou elli ma 3ejbou ma yetala3 bass sma7ouli fia la2 ana ma3 ennou lchab yettala3 bkel we7deh lebseh hek w manou ghalat(akid ghalat diniyan bass tezkir ennou 3am ne7ki akhle2ian) so manou ghalat la2an hayda chi tabi3i alla khala2 l chahweh ma3 l ensen bass lghalat mn l benet elli alla ayela tghatti hal jesm la2anou rabbna 3eref 7alou chou khele2 w 3eref ennou hayda chi bisir l chahawet w mn chen hek amara lal benet tghatti jesma...w bel 3aks ghalat ennou ma yettala3(akhle2ian laysa diniyan) la2an bikoun se3eta marid aw manou rejjel

,ma3leh khallouna nmare2a de7keh la2an albi ra7 yto2 mn hal chaghleh. so ya ekhti l 3azizeh "Dear sister" "chere soeur" ana bedi ellek chaghleh mouhemeh iza manek 3erftia 3rafia : l chab lamma btkouni lebseh hek byetala3 fiki nazra ma mni7a b 7a2ek, ye3ni byetala3 fiki b chahweh w alla a3lam chou byesta7li w chou byetkhayal w byetmana ennou ya3mel ma3ek, fa hal bte2bali hal chi 3a nafsek??? w iza knti bte2bali y7eddek settin jhannam chou ennek we27a

3afwan bass anjad moujarrad l fekra enou tkoun lbenet hek bet3assebni, so ya akhaweti l 3azizet min menna byerda hal chi 3a 7alou aw 3a bntou aw ekhtou min byerda enna tetla3 mn l bet w hal chabeb yemchou chi waraha 3younou mlaz2a b ..................... w chi eddema 3younou bnoss .................. lk ma tkhalouni e7ki chi t2il ha anjad chi bimawet bitale3 l we7ed mn tyebou w ma l7a2 3al chabeb abadan ana ma3on 100% (manou dinyan ma tehjmou 3layi hala2) ana ma3on w b2ayedon leh? 7atta l we7deh ta3ref enna 3a ghalat awalan w tenian la2anou hayda chi tabi3i berja3 bkarrer ennou l chab yetala3 b mafeten l benet wel 3aks sa7i7.
ma bass hek kouni akideh ya kl bent btelbes hek ennou l chab byetala3 fiki nazra 7ayawenyeh w mamni7a abadan w byetmanna ennou ya3mel w ysawi w w w ........ w bel ekher tamani ennou bye7ki 3annek b manou mni7 fo2 kl ma tala3 fiki nazrat chahwenyeh w a2al klmeh bi2oula cheftou hal ch............ (sorry) chou lebseh (anjad sorry bass hayda elli bisir), w iza 7ebbin ta3rfou ana lamma bchouf wa7deh ma lebseh mni7 chou ba3mel?? lmafroud koun metl be2i l chabeb la2ani l7amdella chab tawil 3arid wmani la marid wala ..... lmouhem ana lamma btetla3 bwechi we7deh lebseh hek (we7yet alla) lai chou3ouryan bsebbela b albi w ma betala3 fia w lel asaf mabou tadayounan w betmana sir dayen nchalla la2an ma byenfa3na ella dinna bel niheyeh, wa leken ba3mel hek la2anni anjad bedeya2 tkoun l we7deh ghabyeh hek w mechyeh bhek tyeb w 3orda la narat l chahwet w b7ammela kemel l mas2oulyeh,la2 fi banet we27in kamen fo2 ma btkoun lebseh hek byeji we7ed bisamme3 kem klmeh (masalan yeslamli l khazi2) bt2oum mashalla 7awla bede2a l 7amyeh w btbahdlou , lk layki wleh ma tal3ini mn tyebi b aya 7a2 3am tbahdli?? l7a2 3layki min allek lbesi hek?!! ba3den leh lebseh hek?? ma7ata y2ouloulek hal 7aki?? 3afwan ya banet ana mani 3am ethajjam 3laykon mn beb l 3edwenyeh ennama wallahou 3ala ma akoulou chahid ennou mn beb ghirti 3laykon w la2ani chab w ba3ref kif byenzor l chab la hek banet eltellek ba3d ma yetala3 w ymalli 3aynou bkl wa2a7a a2al wasf elek bikoun "7akira whek bikoun 7tarmek ktir" w sad2ouni ya banet ennou wallahi byeb2a fi chabeb bichoufou bnt lebsa ma2boul manou fade7 bass byeb2ou natrina 3a da2ra kannou iza barmet hek aw tabbet hek aw 3allet kannou bibayenlou chway mn batna aw dahra aw maba3ref chou....
nbara lseni w tfa2rou 3youn ekhwenna l kourra2 bass ma3leh nchalla nestafed w nousal la natijeh w ba3d ma 3reftou ya bannoutet kif byetala3 lchab la yalli ma byelbsou mtl ma amaron rabbna w chou byetmanou w .... so ma t2oulouli ennou essetkon me2ten3in ennou hal lebes sa7!!! lamma bta3rfou ennou l chab byenzerlkon bisir bchahwenyeh w wataweh w byesta7li ya3mel ma3kon kaza w kaza fa hal bte2balou hal chi 3a nafskon???!!!! iza ma badkon tjewbouni b sara7a ma3leh bass jewbou nafskon w ana met2akad ennou la2 ma bte2balou hal chi la2an entou banet meslmin l7amdella w mhazbin w ma bterdou hal chi w yemken fi chawezet w fi mennon bye2balou so haydol alla yel3an l se3a elli 3azabt albi w ktabt 3a hal mawdou3 la2anou ma byestehlou la7zet tefkir mn ajlon w bikounou henneh hek metl ma byenzroulon l chabeb.ana ma jeyini chi mn wara hal mawdou3 bass ma3leh fi ktir akhawet momken ye2ten3ou bkalemi w hayda aham chi, mani 3am a3mel di3ayeh kamen la7ali fa ana l7amdella mzawaj w m7ajjbeh w alla la yerze2ni benet iza bada tetla3 btelbes mtl elli 7kit 3annon, w teni chi mara7 3arref 3an nafsi kamen la2anni mani taleb ella enni le2i tajewob b baldetna l ghalyeh 3a 2loubna kellna, wel saweb mn rabb l 3alamin.
betmana moucherakeh kasifeh w nakd banne2 as mine.
Sincerely,
The Criticized.